I'M READY TO EXIST IN A PLACE WHERE THERE LIES NO SUFFERING

WHEN I SAY THAT I'M HAPPY OR JOYFUL, IM LYING TO MYSELF… I’M JUST TELLING MYSELF THAT TO GET MY MIND TO BELIEVE IT BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN SAID THAT YOU ARE WHAT YOU BELIEVE. YOU ARE THE SUM OF YOUR THOUGHTS.. MAN IS WHAT MAN THINKETH…… BUT THAT’S A FALSE HAPPINESS. A FALSE JOY…..

THE JOY THAT I'M LOOKING FOR ISNT BASED SOLELY ON THE MIND. THE JOY AND HAPPINESS THAT IM LOOKING FOR ISNT TEMPORARY. IT ISNT A FEELING BECAUSE FEELINGS ARE BASED UPON EXTERNAL THINGS. IT IS A PERMANENT EXISTENCE. IT IS THE ESSENCE OF WHO I AM.

IT'S NOT EVEN BASED UPON A BELIEF…

ITS JUST THERE!

INSIDE ME….. IT IS ME… WE ARE ONE…..

THIS IS WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT…. MANY WILL LISTEN BUT FEW WILL ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND….
I FEEL LIKE I’M BEGINNING TO WAKE UP AND SEE THIS WORLD FOR WHAT IT IS AND WHAT ITS NOT…..

IT’S LIKE BEING WARM ON THE INSIDE DESPITE EXISTING IN A COLD CLIMATE… THE OUTSIDE DOESN’T BOTHER YOU AT ALL.

THIS IS WHAT OUR MINDS DO….IT ALLOWS US TO BASE OUR HAPPINES ON PERCEPTIONS BUT WHAT IF THE PERCEPTIONS WERE ILLUSIONS?

THEN YOU CAN SAY THAT ALL ALONG WE WERE CLINGING TO FALSE THINGS…..WHICH WILL ALLOW US TO CONSTANTLY SUFFER…..

AND EVEN SUFFERING CAN BE AVOIDED DESPITE WHAT MANY PEOPLE THINK (I.E IT’S A PART OF LIFE, YOU HAVE TO SUFFER ON EARTH…..ETC ETC)

THE SUFFERING MUST COME TO AN END
AND THIS EXPLAINS WHY I’M READY TO DIE……

FOR IN DEATH COMES LIFE

The happiness that I seek, where can it be found??

Right now I feel like dying. Not in a physical sense per se but mentally I wish I could destroy all these thoughts, dogma, and worldly perspectives from my mind so that I may obtain a peace within that’s beyond this physical plane of existence. Nothing is of inspiration to me anymore. The life that occupies my body is living, breathing, and spectacular yet this existence lies trapped (temporarily) on a mundane planet that has no understanding of PEACE. If time could stop. If worries would fade… If joy could pervade through both the mind and body. What would life be like then?
A return to the source of all things?
What is the source of my being?
My hello to this world is my goodbye. To die is to in fact to live……


And I’m ready to die…..