The Remembrance

A dear friend of mine asked me "when its all said and done, how would you liked to be remembered."
and so I replied:

A small quiet gentleman with a big heart, loud ideas with an open and free mind.

A man who embraced creativity through music and film to bring people together not break them apart.
A man who went against the grain to stand out not because it was cool or trendy but because he wanted others to embrace their individualism as well. A man who found himself through self discovery by traveling the world, gaining insight from not one but many things. A man who gained strength through his adversity.
A man who became the change he wished to see in the world.
For when He leaves, He'll become a part of the sun so that He may forever shine upon everyone that he leaves behind.

How would you like to be remembered when its all said and done?

A lie painted white

For some people it becomes a habit to deceive others. Some lie to protect. Some lie to deceive which leads me to ask, " Are we capable of handling the truth."

Honesty is an act of integrity even if it hurts. The idea behind honesty is that even if we hurt one another by telling the truth, we can accept that we're human even if we don't necessarily agree with each other's actions or decisions.



Do we live and accept a lie because we fear the truth?

The Dream State

In a dream state……….

What makes the dream when we’re asleep any different from the dream when we’re awake? Are our dreams when we’re sleep an illusion or a subconscious reality?
What is reality?
Is it that which can be detected from the 5 senses?

Is reality the state of being awake?

What defines being awake if in fact we’re really sleeping?
Our eyes are open but are we really aware?
Are we conscious to all that surrounds us or sleeping while awake?

Who Am I?

When you have to ask yourself this question, it means that you haven't fully discovered the components that make you who you are. Everyday is a day where you learn something new about yourself.

Self Exploration is the key to Self Actualization.

What makes you happy?

What makes you incomparable to others?

What defines you?

Everyone has something to offer the world. Greatness isnt only exhibited through artistry and the like. It can be as simple as how well you embrace others with your presence to how well you embrace others with your story. We're all children of the universe.

Embrace your potential. Embrace your Uniqueness. Embrace who you are

Embrace You

“To live our dreams, we must wake up”-Unknown


Today we must reignite that passion we once had to be what we desire to become. We can not leave our creative energy in a suppressed state any longer. Life in general can put a damper on our dreams. We must strive to discover who we are and what our “place” within this world is. We must unlock our unlimited potential. We must strive to become creative. We must inspire the world through art.

Is life not a vast canvas filled with an assortment of styles and colors?
Which color or colors do you represent?


No matter what, we must stop dreaming life, and start living it.

We Must Follow our Own Path

“Only we can discover the truth for ourselves”


There are too many people in the world who feel that what may apply to them is the same thing that may apply to you. We must realize that we’re all different. We have different viewpoints, opinions, paths, and philosophies. If only we could respect those differences then the world would be a much better place. My truth may not be your truth. My belief may not be your belief. My faith may not be your faith. We have to allow others to just be themselves without judgement or ridicule. If we were the same then we would be an army of robots but despite our programming , we’re still an army of humans………….

Just let each other be.

Good or Bad? Neither. Only what our mind interprets.

Stress is a feeling in your mind of fear, anxiety, distress, worry, unease, or foreboding caused by using your mind to imagine a bad outcome to a past, present, or future event or situation.

If you’re unhappy with your current situation, continue to think positive while putting forth the necessary action to change it.

We can’t control everything that comes our way but we can however control how we react to those things that come out way.

We make the determination and not the event so therefore we must be determined to see every situation as a situation that is beneficial to us, even if it appears that its not.

You never now what may come from any challenge that you face. I feel there's a lot humans have the ability to understand but don’t, perhaps because of what we've been programmed to believe.

When we learn to become calm and still maintain our inner piece no matter what the outer world gives us, only then will we learn the true art of happiness.


Trust me, I’m learning day by day as well

She's waiting..... One day

I used to believe in love.

I still do.

I'm just afraid to take chances again.

Its too risky.

I realize that when I fall, I fall hard.

Sometimes I put others before myself but never get the same treatment.

I see women differently now.

Beautiful but equally complex creatures.

When it seems you have them figured out you realize there's much more to discover.

I realized that it makes no sense to spend the effort trying to figure someone else out while losing more of myself in the process. This is what I fight with everyday.

It seems that love was a fight in which I never came out a winner.

I loved sincerely, wholeheartedly, and unconditionally and finally came to the conclusion that people do not quite know what they want. If this is the case and human minds are constantly changing and growing, is the idea of committment unrealistic? If we know that people are capable of changing their mind, would it be a risk to engage someone with the intent of starting a lifelong union?

" Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" -Alfred Lord Tennyson:

Maybe I'll settle for the latter though my heart tells me never give up.

Sometimes what you seek will come to you when you least expect it.

I'll just have to settle for love when she comes............

One Day...

The Peace Within > The chaos Without

“When you can be calm in the midst of activity, this is the true state of nature. When you can be happy in the midst of hardship, then you see the true potential of the mind.” – Unknown


You ever wonder why when it’s just you and your thoughts with no distractions, you are most at peace? Our days are filed with deadlines, obligations, fulfillments, and the like. So when do we have time for ourselves? Our minds tend to wander here and there about any and every little thing until the focus is on nothing. Take the time to relax. Inhale peace and contentment. Exhale stress and negative energy.

“Be still and know that I am God”


When you further analyze this statement, you realize that to be still is to be in a state of calmness (at peace). To know that despite how things may appear to be, the universe is watching and planning something good on your behalf.

The Nature of Life

The one thing that is a constant in life is change. It is the nature of things. Winter becomes Fall. Spring becomes Summer but despite the recurrence of seasons, nothing remains the way it used to be. Just like the seasons, we also change and because we are all individuals with different though patterns, sometimes the change we incur takes us in different directions.

“Sooner or Later it all comes crashing down”- N.e.r.d


Some of us become fixated on what used to be remaining attached to what was, denying what is, disregarding what’s to become. We become angry or sad over losing someone we love. The experience leaves us feeling bewildered and sad...yet we don’t know, do we?

Don’t blame yourself.. (easier said than done cause I know)
Realize that what occurred is the best possible thing that could happen to you. For out of this can only come a lesson to make you a better person.

“ What doesn’t kill a person can only make them stronger, but if it drives them to kill themselves, then they weren’t strong all along”

The Universe (God) knows tomorrow
You only know today

The Eulogy: I am the Sun

What becomes of us when there becomes an end? What do we leave behind when our spirits ascend?

The great Jay-Z once said,

“Aint in it for the fame, that dies within weeks
Aint in it for the money, can’t take it when you leave
I wanna be remembered long after you grieve, long
After I’m gone, long after I breathe,
I leave all I am in the hands of history"


I thought for a long time what would be my exit song. The song that commemorates my existence on earth. A lasting impression. A Distant Memory. An exclamation. A message to all to remember who I was. The history I made. The people I saved. The lives I touched and changed.


This wouldn’t be sadness but joy. The joy in knowing that I took part in something beautiful. Life. What I was and still will continue to be. Life is energy and energy never dies nor is it destroyed. It just changes form. I will live on thru my spirit, through my music, through my legacy.
I am not this shell. I am not this face nor this body. I am energy
(soul) that occupies a vessel (body). I am one part of a vast whole (the universe).

And when I ascend, I become a part of the sun, so that I may forever shine on everyone that I leave behind…..

Electric Therapy

Everyone has a favorite song that gets them through their day. While it’s mostly the message found within, its also the emotion that’s felt upon listening and relating to what the artist is saying

The 10 most important songs to me this very moment ( lately I’ve been listening to a lot of rock)

1.) Jet-Shine On- This song makes me think of what I would play at my funeral. It wouldn’t be a moment of sadness but a declaration that I will shine on for everyone that I leave behind. until we meet again…..
2.) Lenny Kravitz- This moment is all there is- If Buddha was a rock star, he most definitely would’ve been Lenny Kravitz. Lenny Kravitz has that ability to touch you with deeply spiritual lyrics infused with timeless melodies. One of the greatest. Bar None
3.) N*E*R*D- Love Bomb- The world doesn’t need another love song. What the world needs is another love bomb to blow all the hatred and injustice that plagues it away………..
4.) Aerosmith- Dream On- What can I Say about this song that the title doesn’t already summarize. Sing with me, sing for the year, sing for the laughter, sing for the tear……….you know the rest
5.) Linkin Park- Leave out all the rest- This song has a similar message to Jet’s shine on. It’s like telling someone that when you’re time comes, and you’re gone……just keep with them the cherished memories and Leave out all the rest.
6.) N*E*R*D-Sooner or later- This is another one of my favorite N.e.r.d songs. Every morning I play this song to remind myself that the past is over and for me to just leave it where it belongs…..behind me.
7.) Rage against the machine-Bombtrack-This is the track I play when I have so much frustration inside and I just want to release it in a positive manner. Rage is one of the reasons why I love Rock music so much.
8.) Pendulum-Granite- This song starts off like its going to be a dope theme song to a horror film, but then before you know it the song strats spazzing out and I start spazzing too! Lmoa! I would love to see this group perform this song live. Can you say insane cause that's what it would be.
9.) X-ecutioners/Black Thought- Executioner Style- Black Thought got it in on this one. The combination of his lyrical grittiness and the X-ecutioners "cuts and blends" made this a great mash up and by the way it was on linkin park's reanimation album.
10.)X-ecutioners feat Mike Shinoda(of Linkin Park)-It's going Down- This song is similar to the one above but instead of Black Thought blessing the mic, it was Linkin Park's Mike Shinoda who went in equally as hard.....

The Perfect Imperfection

The perfect imperfection

The media has implanted misconceptions in our head about what "beauty" is. Despite us all being imperfect in some way, some of us tend to look down on ourselves because we don't fit the description of what society deems beautiful.
We seem to be most impressed with what's on the outside overlooking the fact that on the inside is who we really are. We are all one in the same which means that when you strip away any outer physical appearance or shell, you get the bare us....the true us.

The soul.

We are made of energy. The energy that makes up the vast universe. The energy that originates from a higher energy source (God). This is what’s meant by we are the same. I know that it can take time to overturn the abuse and pain we’ve done to ourselves (I know, I struggle with these things as well) but everyday should be a day where you look yourself in the mirror and smile because you are in fact a beautiful creation and whether you like or dislike certain things about your physical self, you must realize that it’s only a shell, whose purpose is to shelter the very essence of who you are……

Some call it the soul
Others call it the Psyche.....

I call it you, and there's nothing else like it.

Dreaming Again......

I'm dreaming again....this time about running away....

do you ever feel like the place you inhabit is not made for you. Deep down inside you feel that its another place out there for you, a place where you can be free. Be yourself.....no pain....no sorrow.....no tomorrows......time doesn't exist in this place....neither does death....life is all there is....

Its beautiful. You should see it....this is my euphoria..my paradise...my nirvana...this isn't fiction or a fairy tale...this is where I am when I'm sleeping....when I'm dreaming.....but never when I'm awake.

This is intransia.

The world that I live in when I'm awake is a world of sorrow, hatred, and injustice.....there's beauty, fairness, and love within as well but not enough to sustain it from its own destruction.Maybe this is the nature of it....maybe I'm not from here because I don't feel like everyone else...I don't think or see things like everyone else....that doesn't mean that everyone else perspective/perception is wrong. It just means that mine is different...

Nothing more...nothing less....there is not a need for others to agree with me or share the same thoughts...just accept me for who I am and how I feel.


I don't expect to be understood by everyone... I could care less what anyone thinks


I want freedom...true freedom......and I will have it soon....

The Simplest Necessity........Becomes

Where did the love go?

And why didn’t it stay?

What are we chasing that’s real compared to what we’re chasing away?

It seems that our hearts have become resistant to the one true thing that’s vital to our growth. The simplest necessity becomes the most complex luxury that very few benefit from obtaining and keeping for long. Its seems that love started off as the most tranquil desire only to end up becoming the most painful affliction. So what is it that allows us to fall into a deep state of bliss and then in an instant change how we feel because of fear. The fear based upon the assumption that the love we gain will someday be lost…..traumatically….again…..

Yet we don’t know……

We allow ourselves to suffer thinking about what isn’t there instead of what’s here today, very much alive and in our face…..


I can’t make you change your mind if its already been made and I can no longer overexert myself on proving what’s real.

Time will tell.

The Love Vibration

The integral part of life that’s been missing lately is what we need indeed. Humans have been infected by a parasite, a parasite that feeds on its victims until they become hollow and soul-less, empty cavities with just a shell. It has the nature of a virus that plaques many.

What can be done about this epidemic of hatred?

There’s no longer a vibration. The light that once existed is slowly vanquishing. Could we really thrive, let alone survive within perpetual darkness? What has become of us? We’ve become heartless without gain, placing strain on ourselves and others for the purpose of “advancement” The “hatred complex” has taken over our hearts, our minds, and sadly our lives. Opinions are no longer opinions. They’re no longer statements of our individualism but simply attachments to our ego.

“I hate you”
“I hate her”
“I hate him”
“I hate them”

“You hate yourself”

We are all the same don’t you get it? The same blood runs through our veins. The same thoughts occupy our minds. The same unlimited potential runs through each and every single one of us. So why HATE? What do you gain from hating someone who shares the same capabilities as you? Are we not talented and valuable the same? No? Whose opinion is that anyway? Exactly! Yours. You become what you believe and if you don’t take yourself to greater places from where you’re standing then perhaps the only thing holding you back is yourself. Destroy that self doubt and fear that you feel from seeing others achieve greatness for you too can achieve that same greatness. You must love yourself like there’s no greater love.

You must love others the same.

Release the virus of hate from your mind, body, and soul.

Take the antidote……..

The Garden Within

The beauty of Nature. The tranquility of something simple yet divine. I've came to a realization that both inner and outer suffering is driven by both inner and outer complexities. True Genuis resides in simplicity. Anything considered to be trivial or senseless, Mr. Carter is going to stay away from. Everyday I'm learning more about myself from my experiences and interactions with the world. I see and read about things that go on in this world; things that are unjust, irrational, or just plain idiotic. I also realize that I have to change my thoughts within in order to change my world without. Life is.....Life and somewhere along the line between birth and now, I've lost focused on what the true meaning of life is. I've put too much emphasis on the vines and weeds of the outer world, forgetting that all along my inner world contained a garden, perfect in nature, aesthetically sound. It feels good to just relax and breath without worry or fear. Its feels wonderful to be Me, to express how I feel and know that I am a beautiful creation.............

and so are you....

The Gift

We hear it all the time so I'll say it again

Life is a precious gift...the one thing that's temporal but also unappreciated the same. I'm discovering everyday that some things that we put emphasis and importance on really don't matter..Do you wonder what you would do if you knew you only had one day to live? Could you accomplish all you wanted to do in one day if that was all you had? What about a week? A Month? 6 months? A year? The fact is we don't know and because we don't know, we must make the most of everyday while we are here.

When you hear people say to live everyday like its your last, some people adhere to it while with others it goes in one ear and out the other but the reality is tomorrow's not promised for anyone and you wouldn't want your final days to be those of regret now would you? Of course not! So if this be the case why continue to work at that lousy job you hate, endure unnecessary stress and headaches, stay in an abusive relationship, or worry about things or people who don't benefit you. I can go on forever but the basis of what I'm saying is that
We should seize every opportunity that gives us fulfillment, brings us happiness, and makes us smile. We should never procrastinate or feel like we have plenty of time left to make things right, to get ourselves together, to seek fulfillment, and most important of all, to be happy.. The perfect time for these things is not tomorrow..... but now. Right now! We must be aware of the moment of now and embrace it because this may be..... the last moment we have.......
to right the wrongs,
to tell someone you love them,
to fulfill all that you desire....

"Life is precious through the eyes of those who see that the end of it is near"

I dedicate this post to my cousin Debbie.... may you truly be at peace in a much better place.........

Mental Breakdown: The Chaos behind Conformity

It's the same old bullshit and the same old folklore. Something has to give. Chaos and disorder……who made these rules? While I won’t make excuses or complain about the ways of this world…. I realize that something just isn’t right with it…..well its nothing wrong with the world per say but rather the unjust thinking and philosophies of mankind that creates endless conflict and suffering within it.

Does anyone truly observe what is happening anymore…… it seems like everything has become a “game”. Sometimes I wish I can remove myself completely from this “system” of the way things are. Maybe I’m a bit of an idealist here or some may say that my thinking is unrealistic or illogical but what is it about my thinking that makes it anymore different from the world’s thinking other than the fact that my thinking promotes freedom and the awareness of one’s true self, not the artificial one created by labels, luxury badges, and monetary spending.

A Net worth is how we’re valued in this society but are we not valuable BEFORE the obtainment of monetary wealth?


Sure I have more of a laid back approach to life and yes I do feel that I’m still a victim, slave or puppet to many things as well but what better time than now for you and I to free ourselves:

1.) To free ourselves from being victims of our own as well other people’s destructive thinking.
2.) To free ourselves from a system that use and exploit people for its own benefit
3.) To free ourselves from conformity for in the words of the late John F. Kennedy, “Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth.’’


Whether voluntary or not, we as people have given up our peace, our identity, our happiness, and our joy in exchange for frustration, sadness, and pain.

…This is the slavery that I am talking about. The bondage or obligation to someone or something that does us more harm than good. The jobs that we despise and hate waking up every morning to go to, the creditors and bill collectors that we’ve sold our souls to, and the corporations and finance companies that we’ve given our last dollars to in exchange for products and services that we really don’t need nor want for long because the desire for it fades as something new and exciting is bound to replace it.

Ah! And did I mention the status quo lifestyle of keeping up with the joneses to impress others as well as gain their approval. I can go on and on and yes, people are very much aware of all the bullsh*t and folklore this world contains but what’s really being done about it? It’s like we’ve given up and just conformed because a lot of us feel like its easier being someone else instead of ourselves.


We must break free.

Adversity

Adversity builds character…………I never understood that til I had a conversation with a dear friend of mine about the challenges of everyday life. Some days are truly rough and you begin to ask yourself, "will it ever get better?" You hear all the time people telling you to hang in there and that the small situations do not justify the "big" picture. But what is in fact, the big picture? In the grand scheme of things, how is the constant wave of un necessary stress and aggravation from others justified. It’s like a bully that keeps torturing you, eating away at what little peace you have until there’s nothing left… You begin to feel one of two ways. You either feel like giving up allowing it or you fight back to reclaim what has been taken from you. Sometimes you have to show people that you’re not to be f*cked with…

Some people don’t want to see you happy, more so because they’re unhappy with themselves. Misery sure do loves company. Sometimes I ask myself if what I’m going thru now in my life is preparation for something bigger. Maybe it is. Who knows what the future beholds. I know that am strong and I can overcome this. I will admit it does at times seem overwhelming but I feel in my heart that I will overcome this. The reality is people are going to be and probably remain the way they are whether its unjust or unfair. I just realize that I have to remove myself from these situations and/or people that provide confusion and chaos because honestly a peace of mind is a wonderful thing and mine is not to be f*cked with.