The battle of the mind pt 1: the destruction we created

I've come to the realization that the most difficult task in life and not in the form of poverty, hardship, heartache, or death but the most difficult task is in conquering the mind. Some call it self mastery but one thing that can be said about this arduous task is that is that probably the solution to the many problems that plaque the world as we know it today.

Look within your mind. What does it contain? An array of thoughts both negative and positive in form but the key ingredient to what lies manifested in front of your eyes. We are creators of our own universe with our thoughts being the blueprint to both our survival and our demise. Just think of all the destruction this world contains. All the hatred, wars, violence, and chaos. It all originates from how we "view" one another based upon you guessed it: our thinking...

Let the moment of reflection begin

I'M READY TO EXIST IN A PLACE WHERE THERE LIES NO SUFFERING

WHEN I SAY THAT I'M HAPPY OR JOYFUL, IM LYING TO MYSELF… I’M JUST TELLING MYSELF THAT TO GET MY MIND TO BELIEVE IT BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN SAID THAT YOU ARE WHAT YOU BELIEVE. YOU ARE THE SUM OF YOUR THOUGHTS.. MAN IS WHAT MAN THINKETH…… BUT THAT’S A FALSE HAPPINESS. A FALSE JOY…..

THE JOY THAT I'M LOOKING FOR ISNT BASED SOLELY ON THE MIND. THE JOY AND HAPPINESS THAT IM LOOKING FOR ISNT TEMPORARY. IT ISNT A FEELING BECAUSE FEELINGS ARE BASED UPON EXTERNAL THINGS. IT IS A PERMANENT EXISTENCE. IT IS THE ESSENCE OF WHO I AM.

IT'S NOT EVEN BASED UPON A BELIEF…

ITS JUST THERE!

INSIDE ME….. IT IS ME… WE ARE ONE…..

THIS IS WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT…. MANY WILL LISTEN BUT FEW WILL ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND….
I FEEL LIKE I’M BEGINNING TO WAKE UP AND SEE THIS WORLD FOR WHAT IT IS AND WHAT ITS NOT…..

IT’S LIKE BEING WARM ON THE INSIDE DESPITE EXISTING IN A COLD CLIMATE… THE OUTSIDE DOESN’T BOTHER YOU AT ALL.

THIS IS WHAT OUR MINDS DO….IT ALLOWS US TO BASE OUR HAPPINES ON PERCEPTIONS BUT WHAT IF THE PERCEPTIONS WERE ILLUSIONS?

THEN YOU CAN SAY THAT ALL ALONG WE WERE CLINGING TO FALSE THINGS…..WHICH WILL ALLOW US TO CONSTANTLY SUFFER…..

AND EVEN SUFFERING CAN BE AVOIDED DESPITE WHAT MANY PEOPLE THINK (I.E IT’S A PART OF LIFE, YOU HAVE TO SUFFER ON EARTH…..ETC ETC)

THE SUFFERING MUST COME TO AN END
AND THIS EXPLAINS WHY I’M READY TO DIE……

FOR IN DEATH COMES LIFE

The happiness that I seek, where can it be found??

Right now I feel like dying. Not in a physical sense per se but mentally I wish I could destroy all these thoughts, dogma, and worldly perspectives from my mind so that I may obtain a peace within that’s beyond this physical plane of existence. Nothing is of inspiration to me anymore. The life that occupies my body is living, breathing, and spectacular yet this existence lies trapped (temporarily) on a mundane planet that has no understanding of PEACE. If time could stop. If worries would fade… If joy could pervade through both the mind and body. What would life be like then?
A return to the source of all things?
What is the source of my being?
My hello to this world is my goodbye. To die is to in fact to live……


And I’m ready to die…..

Are we living?
Or are we just here.

The days are the same
How sad this routine life

Keeping us afloat through the hope
of a tomorrow that isn’t here…

What we fear is that
What we waited our precious moments hoping for

will never come.
This cant be life.

The change has to start now
Before its too late

And we lose out on what’s really important….
Happiness…..
Joy…..
The moment of now……

In Wonderland

I’ve come to a point in my life where I question everything that was either bestowed upon, taught, or told to me. Am I spiritual? Am I antheist? Am I agnostic? The truth is I don’t even know who I am. I only know that I am a product of other people’s opinions, lessons, words, and thoughts… This doesn’t make me………..ME…..
Am I an individual??
or am I a robot that has been programmed with useless software intended to keep me under control??

I realize that to believe in something means to experience it…. (or at least it should be this way)

I know what love is……
I know what happiness is as well…..

But how do I explain these things to someone who havent experienced this or has a different experience from what I’m explaining????

There are so many lies…….from history to religion to media to government……
What’s left to believe in??

Is faith and hope just meant to keep us afloat??

No two people see the world the same way
But the way I see it, there isnt MUCH love…….
There isnt MUCH peace……
There isnt MUCH happiness………

It just doesn’t make sense……..

It truly feels like we’re just a part of some game/experiment to prove what????

Although I feel lost, I’m thirsty for the truth

Which leaves me to ask:
What is the truth if the truth I thought was the truth was really in truth a lie??