Wednesday, May 27, 2009

In Wonderland

I’ve come to a point in my life where I question everything that was either bestowed upon, taught, or told to me. Am I spiritual? Am I antheist? Am I agnostic? The truth is I don’t even know who I am. I only know that I am a product of other people’s opinions, lessons, words, and thoughts… This doesn’t make me………..ME…..
Am I an individual??
or am I a robot that has been programmed with useless software intended to keep me under control??

I realize that to believe in something means to experience it…. (or at least it should be this way)

I know what love is……
I know what happiness is as well…..

But how do I explain these things to someone who havent experienced this or has a different experience from what I’m explaining????

There are so many lies…….from history to religion to media to government……
What’s left to believe in??

Is faith and hope just meant to keep us afloat??

No two people see the world the same way
But the way I see it, there isnt MUCH love…….
There isnt MUCH peace……
There isnt MUCH happiness………

It just doesn’t make sense……..

It truly feels like we’re just a part of some game/experiment to prove what????

Although I feel lost, I’m thirsty for the truth

Which leaves me to ask:
What is the truth if the truth I thought was the truth was really in truth a lie??

Wednesday, May 6, 2009


I just want PEACE of mind,
The world is NOT going to change
We just have to change how we REACT to it……

This is what I’m teaching myself everyday….Everything happens to mentally train your mind.
All of this bullsh*t from the recession, stock market crash, unemployment, etc

It’s all MENTAL. Mentally we react to it in a manner that brings fear, frustration, and anxiety to ourselves….

FEAR is a powerful force……..
It can drive us insane, force us to lose faith, force us to harm ourselves and others, etc…….

Example: If someone lost their Job, they would react one of two ways. If fear was produced from them being fired, then they would instantly panic about how they’re going to survive until they find a job…….how will the mortgage be paid, etc, etc….etc but if they were the opposite and wasn’t fear driven, then they would understand that things happen (whether for a reason or cause and effect) and they would have faith that they would find another job and that things would be restored to a normal fashion….. No one dies from being FIRED……WE STILL HAVE OUR HEALTH AND OUR LIFE….WE STILL HAVE OPTIONS, CHOICES, AND OPPORTUNITIES THAT WE CAN CREATE FOR OURSELVES……



So ask yourself this question

Are you FEAR or FAITH driven?

Monday, May 4, 2009

The Remembrance

A dear friend of mine asked me "when its all said and done, how would you liked to be remembered."
and so I replied:

A small quiet gentleman with a big heart, loud ideas with an open and free mind.

A man who embraced creativity through music and film to bring people together not break them apart.
A man who went against the grain to stand out not because it was cool or trendy but because he wanted others to embrace their individualism as well. A man who found himself through self discovery by traveling the world, gaining insight from not one but many things. A man who gained strength through his adversity.
A man who became the change he wished to see in the world.
For when He leaves, He'll become a part of the sun so that He may forever shine upon everyone that he leaves behind.

How would you like to be remembered when its all said and done?