The perfect dwelling for me to stay.
So long I’ve waited for this day
She doesn’t live here anymore
I don’t want her to.
I’ve realize that we are better apart than we are together
Though sometimes I miss her.
The sweet taste of her lips drenched with the lipstick of both destruction and bliss.
But that’s gone now………
And I’ve become strong now
At peace within this home we no longer share together…..

Heartbreak Chronicles Part 5: The Ending

She needs space
But I need her…..
I want her as mine
But the thoughts defer…

Maybe later she says….
But times more greater…
So I just watch baby girl turn me to a hater

And I don’t want to call her
Cause she got a new friend
This here is a nuisance
Tryna patch loose ends…..


This is so confusing
No laughing matter
Cause…….
I don’t find it funny
Other dudes getting at her…

And now that I’m messed up
Send me to a clinic
Cause the pain that I feel is
Unprecedented

And now we don’t talk
Look each other in the eye
Acknowledge what we had…
Guess those memories....... died?

Now baby girl's married
Husband and some kids
Now I’m left with the nightmare
Of what it now is………
The fact what it was?
Aint the same how it is
Too hurt to display an emotion from a tear……………………

The Peace Within > The chaos Without

“When you can be calm in the midst of activity, this is the true state of nature. When you can be happy in the midst of hardship, then you see the true potential of the mind.” – Unknown


You ever wonder why when it’s just you and your thoughts with no distractions, you are most at peace? Our days are filed with deadlines, obligations, fulfillments, and the like. So when do we have time for ourselves? Our minds tend to wander here and there about any and every little thing until the focus is on nothing. Take the time to relax. Inhale peace and contentment. Exhale stress and negative energy.

“Be still and know that I am God”


When you further analyze this statement, you realize that to be still is to be in a state of calmness (at peace). To know that despite how things may appear to be, the universe is watching and planning something good on your behalf.

Transcendence

Spaced Out. Dreaming. Floating.
Outside This Atmosphere of Earth
In Search...
Of Something More Inspiring Than This...
For This Environment No Longer Offers Me Bliss

I've Realized the Dilemma to Rationalize
Chance after Chance

Only to realize that the "other side"
holds the key to my "advance"

No Longer a Need For Reasoning.

{Just Go.....) whispers my conscience in my ear
And as I stand here, what appears before me is the light to soar me
to places beyond....

places foreign yet considered to be fond.

Now some may call this insane, but crazy is to think that "normal" resides on this "earthly plane"

And as I arise, my eyes peer upward, never to face the downward spiral

Again......

The Idiot's Idiom

A language spoken by many yet understood by few
Senseless nonsense from “robots” without a conscience
Devious smiles and those that pose to be harmless.

Deceitfulness is comedy
For I laugh at the motive of those who instill harm on me

Hostile environments created by those without a higher sense
Overlabored and Underfavored
We now see where their “desire” went

For they’ve digressed.
From feeling that progress
Was to stab one another in the back

From what I see….

Integrity took a vacation and never came back.
But what truly remains a fact is that

What’s given will surely come back

The universal law, you can’t run from that
The universal law, you can’t run from that……


Lauryn Hill-Forgive Them Father

The Lost Hope of a Broken Child

IF HAPPINESS CAN NOT BE FOUND CAN LIFE SERVE A PURPOSE AND
WHEN ITS REVEALED THAT WHAT WE SOUGHT NEVER WAS,WOULD IT HAVE BEEN WORTH IT?

IS LIFE REALLY WHAT YOU MAKE IT? AND IF SO COULD I HAVE MADE IT
BECOME
PAIN, SORROW AND SELF HATRED......

THE DESIRE TO FIGHT IS NO MORE AS I AM UNSURE
WHAT IT IS EXACTLY THAT IM FIGHTING FOR...............
THERE HAS TO BE MORE......

MUSE- LESS AND USELESS......FRUSTRATED AND FRUITLESS..........NEGATIVE ENERGY THE SYMMETRY WHICH LINKS ME TO FOREVER BEING THE ENEMY
OF MYSELF...............

SHOULD I GIVE UP AND GIVE IN IF ITS INEVITABLE THAT I WONT WIN................
AND...........

IF MY MIND CONTAINS WONDERS.......
THAT ONLY I CAN EXPLAIN THEN WOULD IT HAVE BEEN IN VAIN

IF THE VEIN .....
THAT CONATAINED ......
THAT WHICH KEEPS ME SUSTAINED......
WAS DRAINED

AND MY BRAIN
BECAME
THAT WHICH CAN NOT FUNCTION

WITHOUT A PHYSICAL FRAME...............

WOULD YOU MISS ME THEN?

Modern Day Metropolis

Beyond cloudy skies.......this metropolis lies...

Have we not yet awaken to the order of domination;

the one world order of mankind's enslavement.

The voice of the voiceless.

no longer free to make choices

we must rage against the machine

Behold, for what lies upon this globe of insanity is the control of humanity

and what remains of a circuit implanted populace is

a modern day apocalypse

disguised as

a modern day metropolis

NEW WORLD DISORDER

ATTACK OF THE CLONES
AMONGST BATTLEFIELDS AND WARZONES
DESOLATED COMMUNITIES
DILAPIDATED AND TORN HOMES

FORECLOSED BRICK AND MORTAR
UNEDUCATED SONS AND DAUGHTERS
BEHOLD

THIS HERE MODERN DAY NEW WORLD DISORDER.

CRASHED MARKETS AND GOVERNMENTAL SLAUGHTER
CORPORATE CORRUPTION AND ASPARTAME CAUSED MENTAL DISORDERS

FEAR INDUCED SOCIETIES, LAWS AND POLICIES, MEANT TO ENSLAVE
NO LONGER A SOCIETY OF RIGHTEOUSNESS BUT A SOCIETY DEPRAVED.....


IS THIS HOW WE'LL BE LEAD TO OUR GRAVE?